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bookblather ([personal profile] bookblather) wrote in [community profile] rainbowfic2013-10-16 12:38 am

Stars and Stripes 20, Dirt Brown 13, Cerise 9: peaceful, the world lays me down

Author: Kat
Title: peaceful, the world lays me down
Story: In the Heart
Colors: Stars and stripes 20 (“God works in mysterious ways but at least he works, he's never on welfare in a mysterious way.”), dirt brown 13 (Night), cerise 9 (Sunny day)
Supplies and Materials: Bichromatic (dirt brown and cerise), fingerpainting (...whatever this is, prose poem?), pointillism, miniature collection, watercolors (Write something that makes the world more bearable.) (or so I hope, anyway), stain (You had better follow the example of the British and try to spend Sunday afternoon in the country.), stickers (Hummingbirds, bees and ants spend 80% of their day doing absolutely nothing), glitter (sun on hammock), novelty beads (stretched out nap), photography.
Word Count: 334
Rating: G
Summary: Some days she does nothing.
Warnings: depiction of depression, including insomnia.
Notes: Don't mind me, just playing around with the stickers and words. Title from a song that has nothing whatsoever to do with this piece. I just liked it so I stole it. As you do.


Some days she does nothing because it's too hard to do anything; those days are wasted, slow creeping hours stealing her breath.

Some days she does nothing because she's too tired to do anything; those days are lost, drifting apart like shredded clouds.

Some days she does nothing because the day itself demands it; those days are sacred, half-cut grass tickling her elbows.



She opens her eyes and it's a good day, sunlight creeping in the windows like a shy cat wanting a pat.

She takes a textbook out to the quad and leaves it open on the grass beside her, watches the pages flutter in the wind; the sky is a more diligent pupil than she is.

She heard once, somewhere, that the sun is a gigantic battery, and while she knows that's wrong, she's never been able to shake the idea that she's plugging herself in, charging herself back up.



Light shifts over her skin, patterns her body with the shadows of the leaves, and she closes her eyes, feels her eyelashes come to rest.

Light turns the inside of her eyelids red and she opens her eyes, finds that the sun is westering now, but not sinking, not yet.

Light fades so gradually she hardly notices until the sky is purple-grey with twilight, the west horizon an explosion of color slipping step by step away.



Some nights she lies awake and stares at the ceiling, wondering if she'll ever sleep, if she'll wake up again if she does; those nights are hollow, the clock ticking over one slow number at a time.

Some nights she dreams horrible dreams, not quite nightmares since nightmares aren't real; those nights are exhausting, draining every last bit of her energy and hope.

Some nights she dreams of her feet flying upward as the swing falls back, of her skirt a cascade of ruffles, of her father's arms warm like sunlight; those nights are solace, walking her backwards step by step, down the long road home.
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Wow!

[personal profile] ysabetwordsmith 2013-10-16 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
This is a brilliant depiction of depression.

I am also deeply intrigued to see you using what amounts to poetic structure in prose, with repetition and division of verses. I haven't seen this done in prose poetry before, but it instantly seems like a great idea for that. I shall have to keep this in mind.
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[personal profile] dark_kana 2013-10-17 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh wow. This is so...
This is wonderfully written!
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[personal profile] blossomdreams 2013-10-17 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
:)

This was lovely!