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rainbowfic2013-10-01 03:17 pm
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Admin Yellow #18, Byzantium #8
Name: kay_brooke
Story: The Myrrosta
Colors: Admin Yellow #18 (did we actually accomplish anything here?), Byzantium #8 (after death, nothing, and death itself is nothing)
Styles/Supplies: Fingerpainting (for present tense)
Word Count: 279
Rating/Warnings: PG-13; no standard warnings apply
Summary: Merrus muses on death.
Note: Lint Roll answer forisana, who asked Merrus: what is one thing you want to do before you die?
After Atro dies, Merrus spends a lot of time thinking about death. He thinks about all the people Atro left behind and how they’re all expected to carry on in a world where he no longer exists. He thinks about all the things left unsaid, the confessions Atro whispered to him in those final days that only Merrus knows.
He wonders if it matters, that he knows these secrets. Because someday he too will die, and even if there is anyone there to tell Atro’s secrets to, whoever that is will not care.
What use are secrets, Merrus wonders, if they’re all gone in the end?
He thinks, most of all, about Atro’s last wishes, the things he never got to do. And it makes him wonder about his own wishes. What would he confess on his death bed? Would there be anyone there to confess it to?
Does it matter?
Because there is nothing he wants to do, nothing he particularly wants to see. He has seen much of the world in his life, met many different kinds of people. Lived in joyous ecstasy and--too many times, too many--suffered such heavy spiritual burdens as to bend him double.
What he would like to do, Merrus thinks, is to have a family. One that stays, one that he stays with. A family, and a home. He’s had so many variations on both, but none of them have been what he’s looking for. He wonders if it is an impossible dream, his confession on the eve of his death, the one great regret that he will never have managed to achieve.
He hopes not, but he fears it is inevitable.
kay_brookeStory: The Myrrosta
Colors: Admin Yellow #18 (did we actually accomplish anything here?), Byzantium #8 (after death, nothing, and death itself is nothing)
Styles/Supplies: Fingerpainting (for present tense)
Word Count: 279
Rating/Warnings: PG-13; no standard warnings apply
Summary: Merrus muses on death.
Note: Lint Roll answer for
isana, who asked Merrus: what is one thing you want to do before you die?After Atro dies, Merrus spends a lot of time thinking about death. He thinks about all the people Atro left behind and how they’re all expected to carry on in a world where he no longer exists. He thinks about all the things left unsaid, the confessions Atro whispered to him in those final days that only Merrus knows.
He wonders if it matters, that he knows these secrets. Because someday he too will die, and even if there is anyone there to tell Atro’s secrets to, whoever that is will not care.
What use are secrets, Merrus wonders, if they’re all gone in the end?
He thinks, most of all, about Atro’s last wishes, the things he never got to do. And it makes him wonder about his own wishes. What would he confess on his death bed? Would there be anyone there to confess it to?
Does it matter?
Because there is nothing he wants to do, nothing he particularly wants to see. He has seen much of the world in his life, met many different kinds of people. Lived in joyous ecstasy and--too many times, too many--suffered such heavy spiritual burdens as to bend him double.
What he would like to do, Merrus thinks, is to have a family. One that stays, one that he stays with. A family, and a home. He’s had so many variations on both, but none of them have been what he’s looking for. He wonders if it is an impossible dream, his confession on the eve of his death, the one great regret that he will never have managed to achieve.
He hopes not, but he fears it is inevitable.
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