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blossomdreams ([personal profile] blossomdreams) wrote in [community profile] rainbowfic2013-08-24 12:15 am

Summertime Blues #3

Name: Blossom
Story: Pleasant Surprise
Colors: Summertime Blues 3. (Aches like an old wound)
Supplies and Styles: stain (If all else fails, immortality can always be assured by spectacular error. -John Kenneth Galbraith), glue
Title: Things I wish I could change
Word Count: 340
Rating: PG-13
Summary: There are some things Bernard isn't proud of.
Warnings: mentions of a friend's death, kidnapping, implied violence, and guilt
Notes: Lint roller response for [personal profile] bookblather who asked Bernard: are there any moments in your life that you look back on and wince? Enjoy!

I have to say that my life has turned out pretty great. My family and friends are still with me. I have the most understanding, kind, beautiful wife in the world. Yeah I know I’m rambling a bit and I’m not sorry about it. My kids are awesome, I know that’s my opinion and I stand by it. The war ended and my kids can grow up in peace. I really can’t complain about much, but there are some times in my life that makes me wince when I think about them.

Axel’s death is one of those moments. I can’t look back on it without cringing or fighting the urge to call up Claire and apologize. It eats away at me because the one time I didn’t jump in without thinking I lost one of my closest friends. I know now that if Axel followed my plan, Claire and Seth might not be here today, but it still hurts whenever I think about it.

Let’s see, another moment that makes me wince is when my kids got kidnapped. I don’t know how I let our defenses fall so far to let that happen. I know I checked those spells before I left, but a damn shifter got in, knocked out one of our hotel workers, and then all hell fucking broke loose. I don’t think I’ve been that mad in all my life. At least I know that clan will never mess with us again.

Another moment, well two, is my fights with Alene and Albert. I didn’t fight with them together it was two different incidents. My fight with Albert happened when we were in high school. The one with Alene happened a few months after we started dating. Let’s just say in both incidents I went a bit overboard in trying to protect them. That’s something I won’t do ever again.

I could go on about other incidents that make me shake my head, but those I mentioned make me wince every time I think about them.
 
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[personal profile] bookblather 2013-08-24 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Awww, Bernard, you're so overprotective. It's almost sweet, but I can totally understand why Alene was frustrated.