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rainbowfic2013-08-22 02:43 am
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Summertime Blues #20
Name: Blossom
Story: Pleasant Surprise
Colors: Summertime Blues 20. (Summer moved on)
Supplies and Styles: canvas, seed beads, stain (It is a common delusion that you make things better by talking about them. Dame Rose Macaulay), glitter ("Cherish your own emotions and never undervalue them." – Robert Henri), glue
Title: Choices
Word Count: 508
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Claire is having trouble with her feelings.
Warnings: A lint roller response forthelinesoflearning who asked: Claire, what is something you probably should tell someone but haven't yet/don't want to. Enjoy!
There are a few things I know I should tell people, but I haven’t found the time to do so. I want to let my mom know that she doesn’t have to take care of Seth anymore. I want to let my brothers know that I’m fine and one of them doesn’t need to accompany me everywhere I go. There is something I want to tell someone, but I don’t know how to do it.
You see, I’m falling for someone again.
That’s right, I am.
The problem is I don’t know what to do. It’s been about five years since my Axel’s death. I can look at his pictures and not burst into tears anymore, but these new feelings confuse me. I feel that I shouldn’t move on because if I do then I’m forgetting Axel. That’s not what I’m doing. I’ll always love Axel, that won’t change, but I can’t help feeling bad that I’m opening up to someone else.
My therapist says that moving on is the path to recovery, but it doesn’t feel that way to me. The man I met doesn’t help matters. He’s a Shadow Demon, like me, he’s also sweet, smart, and can make me laugh. Not to mention, he has the cutest smile. At first, I feared that Seth wouldn’t like him or that they wouldn’t get along. Well, I was wrong Seth adores him. Anyone that Seth likes is good in my book.
I have another worry because I thought that would be a problem and it isn’t. Now I don’t know what to do because I have this thing with Daisuke and then I meet this new guy, but I don’t want Daisuke to feel that I don’t need him anymore.
Daisuke has been such a big help to me and Seth that I can’t do anything that might hurt him. Worse, I think I’m hurting Axel from his place in the Great Plane. I know he told me to live the last time I saw him during the ghost holiday, but I’m not sure I can do it. What will happen when it’s my time to meet him? Will everything be okay?
I want to tell my mom, but I know she’ll jump in headfirst and push for me to have a relationship. I really don’t feel like hearing her right now. My brothers will get all protective of me and that’s something I don’t need. I don’t know if Seth would like it, but he’s surprised me before.
My friends would be supportive. I could talk to Alene, but whenever I see her she’ll mention Bernard and as much as I love that they’re still together, I can’t really take seeing another relationship. Chou would want me to take that next step along with Sarah.
I wish there was someone I could talk to about this, but I haven’t found them yet. I know it’s not good to hide this, but I think it’s for the best.
I’ll let people know when I’m not so confused.
Story: Pleasant Surprise
Colors: Summertime Blues 20. (Summer moved on)
Supplies and Styles: canvas, seed beads, stain (It is a common delusion that you make things better by talking about them. Dame Rose Macaulay), glitter ("Cherish your own emotions and never undervalue them." – Robert Henri), glue
Title: Choices
Word Count: 508
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Claire is having trouble with her feelings.
Warnings: A lint roller response for
thelinesoflearning who asked: Claire, what is something you probably should tell someone but haven't yet/don't want to. Enjoy!There are a few things I know I should tell people, but I haven’t found the time to do so. I want to let my mom know that she doesn’t have to take care of Seth anymore. I want to let my brothers know that I’m fine and one of them doesn’t need to accompany me everywhere I go. There is something I want to tell someone, but I don’t know how to do it.
You see, I’m falling for someone again.
That’s right, I am.
The problem is I don’t know what to do. It’s been about five years since my Axel’s death. I can look at his pictures and not burst into tears anymore, but these new feelings confuse me. I feel that I shouldn’t move on because if I do then I’m forgetting Axel. That’s not what I’m doing. I’ll always love Axel, that won’t change, but I can’t help feeling bad that I’m opening up to someone else.
My therapist says that moving on is the path to recovery, but it doesn’t feel that way to me. The man I met doesn’t help matters. He’s a Shadow Demon, like me, he’s also sweet, smart, and can make me laugh. Not to mention, he has the cutest smile. At first, I feared that Seth wouldn’t like him or that they wouldn’t get along. Well, I was wrong Seth adores him. Anyone that Seth likes is good in my book.
I have another worry because I thought that would be a problem and it isn’t. Now I don’t know what to do because I have this thing with Daisuke and then I meet this new guy, but I don’t want Daisuke to feel that I don’t need him anymore.
Daisuke has been such a big help to me and Seth that I can’t do anything that might hurt him. Worse, I think I’m hurting Axel from his place in the Great Plane. I know he told me to live the last time I saw him during the ghost holiday, but I’m not sure I can do it. What will happen when it’s my time to meet him? Will everything be okay?
I want to tell my mom, but I know she’ll jump in headfirst and push for me to have a relationship. I really don’t feel like hearing her right now. My brothers will get all protective of me and that’s something I don’t need. I don’t know if Seth would like it, but he’s surprised me before.
My friends would be supportive. I could talk to Alene, but whenever I see her she’ll mention Bernard and as much as I love that they’re still together, I can’t really take seeing another relationship. Chou would want me to take that next step along with Sarah.
I wish there was someone I could talk to about this, but I haven’t found them yet. I know it’s not good to hide this, but I think it’s for the best.
I’ll let people know when I’m not so confused.
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