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rainbowfic2012-02-10 06:02 pm
bookblather) wrote in rainbowfic2012-02-10 06:02 pm
Lust 29: She Hates It
Author: Kat
Title: She Hates It
Story: Polyfaceted
Colors: Lust 29 (under the covers).
Supplies and Materials: Acrylic (I can keep a secret), seed beads (Morgan being the main characters' aunt), feathers (your character is ashamed), chalk (alone together), collage.
Word Count: 168.
Rating: G.
Summary: Morgan hates it when her children are diagnosed.
Warnings: mental illness, internalized ableism.
Notes: Kelly's Christmas story from me. Approved by them.
She hates it, when her children are diagnosed.
She hates it because she knows what it feels like. Depression, crushing, like cotton balls filling her head until she can't speak, can't think, can't feel. Anxiety, shivering, that makes her shake so hard her fingers go numb. Her thoughts racing, her heart pounding, until it feels as if everything inside her is trying to get out get out get out away from her tormenting mind.
She hates it because she knows what they'll live through. Complications: hallucinations, lost jobs, broken relationships. Side effects; nausea, headaches, dry mouth, sleep problems. Outside forces; misunderstandings, outright bigotry, the constant isolation that comes from being mentally ill.
She hates it so much, the more so because it's her fault; it's her broken mind that makes them feel this way, her genes that poisoned them even as they birthed them.
She hates it, and she hates herself, because in the smallest, meanest, quietest way, she's a little bit glad that she's not alone anymore.
Title: She Hates It
Story: Polyfaceted
Colors: Lust 29 (under the covers).
Supplies and Materials: Acrylic (I can keep a secret), seed beads (Morgan being the main characters' aunt), feathers (your character is ashamed), chalk (alone together), collage.
Word Count: 168.
Rating: G.
Summary: Morgan hates it when her children are diagnosed.
Warnings: mental illness, internalized ableism.
Notes: Kelly's Christmas story from me. Approved by them.
She hates it, when her children are diagnosed.
She hates it because she knows what it feels like. Depression, crushing, like cotton balls filling her head until she can't speak, can't think, can't feel. Anxiety, shivering, that makes her shake so hard her fingers go numb. Her thoughts racing, her heart pounding, until it feels as if everything inside her is trying to get out get out get out away from her tormenting mind.
She hates it because she knows what they'll live through. Complications: hallucinations, lost jobs, broken relationships. Side effects; nausea, headaches, dry mouth, sleep problems. Outside forces; misunderstandings, outright bigotry, the constant isolation that comes from being mentally ill.
She hates it so much, the more so because it's her fault; it's her broken mind that makes them feel this way, her genes that poisoned them even as they birthed them.
She hates it, and she hates herself, because in the smallest, meanest, quietest way, she's a little bit glad that she's not alone anymore.
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Thank you. <3
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You wrote her really well. I'm kind of jealous.
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why yes I anthromophize my depression. *shifty eyes*
But yeah. Anyway. Thank you. <3 If I wrote her well, it was because you gave me all the information I needed. And also I live with a lot of this stuff so.
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You did a great job.
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