Sulphur 10, Faded Blue 9: undone

[bookblather]

Author: Kat
Title: undone
Story: In the Heart
Colors: Sulphur 10 (Damnation), faded blue 9 (You'd be hers if only she would call)
Supplies and Materials: Tapestry, charcoal (Rebecca Sierbenski), miniature, brush (elegiac), fabric (this endlessly useful image), glitter (What is your personal truth?), photography, novelty beads (But I won't turn back, now, though the way is clear/I will stay for the remainder - Joanna Newsom, "On A Good Day").
Word Count: 100
Rating: G.
Summary: She misses them, but she knows she deserves it.
Warnings: implications of child abuse.
Notes: I've been getting more and more sympathetic towards Rebecca. Weird.


She keeps up with her children as best she can. No contact-- they made that very clear-- but from a distance. She buys Michael's books and lines them up, her son smiling on the back covers. She prints pictures of Danny and tacks them on the wall, her daughter muscled and happy.

Her children are happy, and they hate her, and she deserves it.

Rebecca knows, in the back of her mind, that they'll never forgive her. She knows they'll never want to see her again. She knows it's better that way.

She hopes they know she's proud of them.

Comments

[isana]

Wow, this is a really heartfelt piece, especially after how Rebecca treated both of them. It's rare that you see such honest regret, but you really nailed it here.

[bookblather]

She knows she fucked up, and she knows she isn't ever going to see them again. I think that's enough punishment for her, to be honest.

Thank you.

[settecorvi]

Her honest remorse is... painful, but in the way that lancing an infected wound is.

[bookblather]

Yeah. It'll start to heal now. Thank you!

[shipwreck_light]

And we end the evening on me gingerly reaching out to pat Rebecca on the shoulder.

Very.

Gingerly.

But I'm still trying, damnit!

Thank you for all of this villain-based work. It has been fascinating. And owie. AND VERY WELL-WRITTEN I HOPE YOU KNOW.

[bookblather]

She's... she tried, you know? She didn't do a good job, but she tried, and she's honestly sorry for all her fuckups. Unlike most of my villains. Anyway.

Thank you!