Sapphire #1, Mellow Yellow #4, Electric Purple #15

[shadowsong26]

Name: shadowsong26
Story: she's a
'Verse: Feredar
Colors: Sapphire #1. sapphire, Mellow Yellow #4. Body of Venus, Electric Purple #15. Too many shadows, whispering voices/Faces on posters, too many choices/If, when, why, what?/How much have you got? (The Petshop Boys- West End Girls)
Supplies and Materials: fingerpainting (I'm...doing some weird things with form here. I'm not 100% sure it works), frame (1007 FY), oils, feathers, fabric, modeling clay, beading wire, glitter, glue ("You could experience a sudden meltdown today and then recover just as quickly...Your logic can only take you so far now, so set rational language aside for a while. Thankfully, your emotional involvement won't lead you into dangerous territory. Instead, sharing your feelings soothes your nerves, turning this into a time to connect with others.")
Word Count: 243
Rating: R
Characters: Isshiri, Telri
Warnings: References to injury including a serious concussion and blood-magic (healing, not combat)
Notes: Constructive criticism welcome, as always. Last Sapphire!


the sky is blue up above me, clear and shimmery a little, like a mirage
         mirage
                     blue sky
                                something's wrong
it doesn't hurt it doesn't really i feel strange
          floating
                     disconnected
                                           strange
what?
shimmery bluesky and then a shadow--not a shadow.
telri?
telri, what happened?
i don't remember.
shhhhh
shhhh it's okay
something ripples underneath my skin
          under my scalp
                     pulling something together
                                it's not wrong anymore
                                           just very strange
i think my brain is moving
i think my brain is moving
shhhhh it's going to be all right you're going to be all right
pulsing, something's pulsing
and it's out of my control
but it feels--
          not bad
                     strange
                                not bad
                                           coming together?
what?
slowly it pieces together
telri is doing something
                                something
                                                                 something
                                                                                                  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she's a
                                                                                                                                   she's a
but there aren't any unthreaded--
                                                      but she's
                                                                            how else could she
she said her mother was an earth-mage
but she's a
                                                                                                                                   (blood)
she's a
                                                                                                                                   (pulse)
she's a nightmare
                                                                                                                                   (breathe)
she's a nightmare a bloodmage a
                                                                                                                                   (beat)
.....................i'm as bad as they were
          she saved me
                     why am i afraid?
                                she's saving me
                                           putting my head back together
                                                                 and
                                                                                       i
the sky stops shimmering.
just clear, open, steady blue
                                                      telri won't meet my eyes.
i grope for her hand
                     it's okay
                                           really?
                                                                 you saved me. (again)
she slumps
i close my eyes
the pulsing fades
                     the sky fades
                                           sensation fades
          (i must have lost too much)

she's a blood-mage.

and she saved me.

Comments

[bookblather]

Am I bad person if I laughed at "I think my brain is moving?" Also, the sense of concussion here is really strong, and the strong division at the end between blood-mage and she saved me really emphasizes Isshiri's confusion and uncertainty.

[shadowsong26]

Thank you ^^

Hee, no, I don't think you're a bad person for that.