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shadowsong26 ([personal profile] shadowsong26) wrote in [community profile] rainbowfic2024-03-04 11:50 pm

Vert #13, Bittersweet

Name: shadowsong26
Story: Taking Root
'Verse: Lux
Colors: Vert #13. Anchor, Bittersweet
Supplies and Materials: graffiti (February Challenge: Valentine's Day), saturation, miniature collection, photography, pointillism, resin, canvas (all but #10), calendar page (Ida Day), brush (salubrious), stain, yarn
Word Count: 596
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Simon, Alejandro Sanchez, various past Guardians
Warnings: Oblique references to Simon getting pulled in and out of his life/having his memory played with; references to familial death in that Simon is immortal and his family is not.
Notes: Constructive criticism welcome, as always! Just under the wire as I so often am, lol...


1. growing apart

Louis Krain is the first Guardian that Simon barely recognizes; after so many generations, the fragments of Ruth and David, of Simon himself, are fading away--but then there's an echo of his granddaughter in the way Louis smiles, and Simon feels grounded once again.


2. memories

He makes a point of memorizing the name of every Guardian he has, but there are a few that he only meets once or twice, and as the decades turn into centuries, some of the faces attached to some of those names start to blur together in a fond haze of love-loss-sanctuary-regret.


3. nostalgia

Ilyn Long is the one to establish the enclave on the Island, she shows him the bare bones of what will, hopefully, become the first place to really feel like home since they lost the old house so long ago; and for a moment there's the grief at that home that he lost, but then he sees the pride and joy and love Ilyn has for what she created, and can't help but feel that pride and joy and love for her--for all of this--in turn.


4. fond farewell

It's Adam Stone-Greenberg--the last Guardian who carries that name--who moves the Family (and when had that become capitalized) out of the old house; he brings Simon by when he's himself to say his goodbyes.


5. the road not taken

When humanity begins to spread throughout the solar system and beyond, Viktorie Pyne wants to follow--but, however far he wanders, even with the Family to catch him when he falls, Simon is sure he'll never find that same sense of homecoming, of grounding, of belonging, anywhere but the Earth where he was born.


6. old photographs

Grant Licarn is the one to show him the gallery; he wants to hate it, all those pictures of all his lives collected in one place, drawing attention to the empty spaces between them--but something in Grant's soft, even voice makes him see it differently; a path drawn through history, to his present, his family, his Guardian--his self.


7. the way things were

Caleb Doyle is a shock--he is so much like Simon's son David, centuries later, that he might have been his brother; maybe not in looks, even if he has his ancestor's eyes in the right light, but his personality, the way he fidgets when he thinks; the way he treats Simon like a person, a kinsman--a friend, in time.


8. missed opportunities

The first time he meets Becca Alleyn, she's six years old with a gap in her front teeth that makes him ache for all the bits and pieces of her mother, father, grandmother, great-grandmother, great-great-grandfather before her that he never knew; when she greets him as his Guardian decades later, he remembers that gap-toothed smile and is grateful he got to see it, if only once.


9. making a choice

He tries not to have favorites, but he can't deny that there are some Guardians he's liked better than others--coming home to Ida Skry is still a safe harbor, still a relief, but with her, there's an element of obligation that he never feels--and a lack of the joy he always feels--when he comes home to Ida Soli two generations later.


10. endings and beginnings

He likes Alejandro Sanchez, quite a bit; and maybe some of that is the ease of familiarity, since Al has been his Guardian for so long, but some of that is just...little things about him, about his wife, about his life; and while Simon certainly wouldn't wish the end on any of his Guardians, he finds a dim ray of hope, after Lux shatters open his mind and exposes him to the truth, in that Al is the one to stand and face it.
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[personal profile] thisbluespirit 2024-03-05 10:42 am (UTC)(link)
Aw, this is great, and so fascinating - and drives home the cumulatively painful loss of immortality.
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[personal profile] bookblather 2024-03-31 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
I agree with thisbluespirit: the cumulative losses here build and build and build and there's no real outlet, because there wouldn't be, would there?

Here's your novelty beads!

1. https://49.media.tumblr.com/0c2966bd8da6e0b659d4f6e5886ea8b4/tumblr_o0g0tzaDzx1rf5bj0o2_250.gif

2. Hiding/disguised