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rainbowfic2013-08-05 04:24 pm
serpentine) wrote in rainbowfic2013-08-05 04:24 pm
Summertime Blues (special) #1, Bone #1: Family Expectations
Name: Tom (serpentine)
Title: Family Expectations
Universe:starikov_chronicles
Colors: Summertime Blues (Special Color) #1 - L'esprit de l'escalier; Bone #1 - corpse road
Supplies and Styles: seed beads, novelty beads (Never again)
Word Count: 332
Rating: PG
Warnings: Discussion of dysfunctional family.
Summary: Sofiya talks about why she left her family.
Notes: Written for my lint roller.finch asked Sofiya, "What were you afraid to tell your family?"
I’ve always had trouble getting my family to listen to me. They always expected things that I could not give.
When I was eighteen, my father gave me an ultimatum. He told me that I had to marry one of this generals. I believe his name was Stephan. I refused, so I ran away.
It wasn’t just that I didn’t want to marry him, though he was a despicable person. I simply wanted no part in marriage at all. Unlike most girls, I did not dream of marrying a handsome man and setting up a household with him.
Oh, I dreamed of having a home of my own, a place where I could live, but I never imagined a husband in all of my daydreams. No, what I wanted was to set up housekeeping with no one but myself for company.
However, no one heard me when I said I was not interested in anyone. My father insisted that I marry to his advantage. As if I was some piece of property that he owned.
Alexei wouldn’t have understood. He was too young when I ran away and when I saw him again, he had been ruling for a year. He too wanted to use me to his advantage, though thankfully he did not push me to marry.
I did not ask to be born to this family with all its baggage and internal politics. I want nothing to do with it. All I wish is to be left alone to do my own thing. Yet my brother cannot understand this. He still sees me as his more knowledgeable, older sister.
The truth is, however, is that I am just as flawed and unknowing as he is. I do not have all the answers for him, even though he would like me to. I continue to stay away because I cannot be what he wants me to be.
I left home because of expectations. I stay away because of them as well.
serpentine)Title: Family Expectations
Universe:
starikov_chroniclesColors: Summertime Blues (Special Color) #1 - L'esprit de l'escalier; Bone #1 - corpse road
Supplies and Styles: seed beads, novelty beads (Never again)
Word Count: 332
Rating: PG
Warnings: Discussion of dysfunctional family.
Summary: Sofiya talks about why she left her family.
Notes: Written for my lint roller.
finch asked Sofiya, "What were you afraid to tell your family?"I’ve always had trouble getting my family to listen to me. They always expected things that I could not give.
When I was eighteen, my father gave me an ultimatum. He told me that I had to marry one of this generals. I believe his name was Stephan. I refused, so I ran away.
It wasn’t just that I didn’t want to marry him, though he was a despicable person. I simply wanted no part in marriage at all. Unlike most girls, I did not dream of marrying a handsome man and setting up a household with him.
Oh, I dreamed of having a home of my own, a place where I could live, but I never imagined a husband in all of my daydreams. No, what I wanted was to set up housekeeping with no one but myself for company.
However, no one heard me when I said I was not interested in anyone. My father insisted that I marry to his advantage. As if I was some piece of property that he owned.
Alexei wouldn’t have understood. He was too young when I ran away and when I saw him again, he had been ruling for a year. He too wanted to use me to his advantage, though thankfully he did not push me to marry.
I did not ask to be born to this family with all its baggage and internal politics. I want nothing to do with it. All I wish is to be left alone to do my own thing. Yet my brother cannot understand this. He still sees me as his more knowledgeable, older sister.
The truth is, however, is that I am just as flawed and unknowing as he is. I do not have all the answers for him, even though he would like me to. I continue to stay away because I cannot be what he wants me to be.
I left home because of expectations. I stay away because of them as well.
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