Ruby 3, Snow White 13: If

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Author: Kat
Title: If
Story: Huge Scary New Story
Colors: Ruby 3 (skin white as snow), snow white 13 (crane wife)
Supplies and Materials: Miniature, bichromatic, canvas, acrylic (puzzle), feathers (Blood on her/his/their hands.), pastels (logic).
Word Count: 100.
Rating: PG.
Summary: Daniel wonders if he's to blame.
Warnings: mentions of racism and sexism
Notes: And then this happened. Why do I write angsty drabbles when I can't sleep?


In the dark days after Alicia's death, Daniel wonders if he's to blame.

He knows he didn't pull the trigger, and he knows the larger causes, skin color and womanhood and everything society finds useless. But between direct and overarching there is a quiet space where some blame lies for him.

If he'd gone pro instead of teaching. If they'd bought a house in the suburbs, not rented in the city. If they'd hired a babysitter, gone on a date like Alicia suggested instead of him staying home with Benjy, sending her out alone.

Benjy has his mother's eyes.

If.